Myths About Enlightenment

(OK, since I was compelled to write, I am guessing my blog break is over.)

When I talk to spiritual seekers about enlightenment, which does not happen very often and only occasionally, I find that people have no idea what “it” is. When I first started on the path to awakening, I didn’t know what it was either. I am guessing this is normal.

One thing is certain: enlightenment is a process that is pretty well mapped out and is not different for everyone. There are distinct stages throughout one’s evolution that are common for all who go through them. There are different levels, so to speak. However, what we do with our state of enlightenment is unique because each of us is unique.

I vaguely recall that feeling of not having a clue of what I was searching for. However, I did have an intense yearning, which I felt fullbodily. In my early teens, I decided that life – as presented by the majority – made no sense to me at all. If I were to live, my life would be dedicated to finding whatever “it” was.

The feeling of yearning throughout my entire body was essential for me. It was a kind of driving force that drowned any doubt and fear. An intellectual idea of wanting to be enlightened, and without any connection to the body, has little power and even less use when the process gets challenging.

There are many myths about enlightenment. I see people forming different pictures of what “it” is in their heads that are simply incorrect. I went through the process and am still evolving. I also compared my milestones to the writings of sages and rishis and Westerners who have clearly gone through an awakening. The milestones along the way appear to be the same.

Let me first say what enlightenment isn’t:

  • It is not a psychodelic experience that comes occasionally, and then goes away. Unless the state is permanent, what occurred was simply a “peak” experience.
  • It is not an immediate cure-all for all physical ailments and emotional debris accumulated over the years. Although healing is dramatically accelerated.
  • It is not a detachment from life, where you become an un-feeling robot, observing everything from a distance. Instead, you go even deeper into life because you realize you are all of this.
  • All your uncomfortable everyday situations do not just go away overnight. However, you do have an intuition about how to move through these situations and ultimately rebalance. You live your life, but you do not define yourself by its ups and downs.
  • It is not dependent on religion, ethnicity, or culture. Anyone, when prepared and ready, can embark on the journey.
  • It does not require special ritual, incantations, mantras, or protections. Rather, one realizes permanently what one is and lives a life from that space of being – naturally.
  • It does not make one “perfect,” whatever that means to any individual. Perfection is a social, cultural, and individual construct that has no absolute reality. However, any imbalances and things requiring realignment are seen through with ease and can be addressed. It can take decades, perhaps, to fully clear out one’s life of clutter after the breakthrough has occurred.
  • It does not make one superhuman or a God, although some abilities may emerge naturally and depending on the person. Nevertheless, an enlightened person is not quite like most human beings and may wonder what it truly means to be human.
  • It has nothing to do with the Mind and runs on a completely different circuit. One cannot “think” and “analyze” one’s way to transformation – if we could, we would all be “there” already. Our Minds are mere tools compared to what “it” is.
  • It has nothing to do with never getting tired. Because of the honed desire to help others, an enlightened being may need more rest and solitude to be. Life in a physical body on this dense plane of existence is not “easy.” But after regenerating, it is much easier to continue giving back to life and to be engaged in one’s unique service.

It is “not” so many things, which people imagine without having actually gone through the process. Of course – we all construct answers that make sense to us at the time. And how would we know without walking the actual path?

What is “it”, then? Enlightenment is a permanent transformation, where the separation from what lives all of us (God, the Divine, whatever you call it) is gone.

The initial breakthrough is the most difficult because it feels like you have to give up all of your preconception and fears about life and reality, but we hold on to these dearly and resist the required surrender. Further breakthroughs do follow for some people. In actuality, the process of awakening to our intrinsic being does not appear to be something that ends.

Enlightenment makes living easier. Challenging situations “make sense” in an intuitive way. Thoughts become quiet. Being alone is never lonely. The desire to directly relate to life becomes much stronger than the tendency to analyze and dissect phenomena and experiences. One sees through the pedantic tendencies of vivisecting life into pieces and is not drawn to them at all because relationship and making connections is much more interesting. Living life directly and without any pretense becomes primary.

The role of the teacher is key to avoiding getting stuck at various points along the way. Before the breathrough, people get easily bogged down in useless patterns of relating to life and can’t move through them. I get a visual of people repeatedly and unconsciously banging their heads against a wall and expecting it to not hurt. The teacher would step in during such times and help the person see and shift the way they use their energy. The teacher serves as a living blueprint for the way energy can run through human form. Often, the student gets a “boost” and feels more open and creative after meeting a teacher (who may not call themselves that). Sometimes a person is “shaken up” after such an encounter without realizing that they are shaken up because of getting in touch with what lies within themselves. It is common to reject the enlightened being, which is a sure sign that one is more comfortable with where they currently are.

People typically tell an enlightened being everything. Although this doesn’t pose any real threat, revealing may still be scary because we are attached to our identities and feel that vulnerability is a weakness. The enlightened being is a powerful mirror that sheds light on one’s insecurities, doubts, and fears, as well as their creative potential. There is never judgement in the sense of how people tend to label and conclude their dispositions toward another. In other words, an enlightened soul has no need for quick finality about anyone.

Fundamentally, enlightenment is about living as happiness amidst whatever comes up. One acquires a fundamental joy that grows and grows as one develops the expression of one’s state. This expression must be actively cultivated and engaged to bring one closer to the “full” state.

Immersion in Kabbalah

In the early ’90, I somehow heard about the Kaballah. At the time, I was studying whatever I could find about every tradition I could find.

Unfortunately, there were no English translations of the texts that seemed appropriate for me, so I purchased a set of books in Aramaic. I scanned the pages and…that’s all I did. I was about 21 at the time.

Later, I stumbled upon an English translation of the Zohar. I read it and reread it without understanding anything. There were writings about how one had to be 41 to begin this study, but I ignored all guidelines at the time. I lacked the capacity to be aware.

This weekend I dedicated to a renewed immersion in the Kabbalah. Specifically, I accessed the Chabad.org site for the Kaballah. I also studied the descriptions of the Sephirot on Wikipedia. Sound impressively academic, doesn’t it?

While I was accessing this information in a highly informal but intensive way, I could feel an inpouring of understanding that was being triggered by what I was reading.

My understanding wasn’t academic – it was emerging in my being. I was astounded by how rich and abstract was the Kabbalah! I could intuitively sense that the books that popularize it do not do it justice.

For example, the Tree of Life consisting of the 10 Sephirot is a relationship diagram of complex interactions occurring among the various energy structures at countless scales. Every piece contains the Whole. The manifested world – a luminous emanation of the Creator, is gradually dimmed and obscured as it passes through the five worlds. In the most luminous world, the light and its vessels are nearly indistinguishable – and yet there are vessels there, perfectly attuned to receiving the Radiance.

Our physical vessels are largely lacking in the ability to grasp and align the flow of differentiated Divine energy, but aim to persevere nonetheless. The Kabbalah teaches how to understand and realign/heal ourselves.

Beholding the face of G-d is not standing and looking at something other. Instead, it is the synchronous awareness of the Divine unfolding as oneself.

After gaining insight of the whole, I began to explore the Sephirot themselves. Intuitively, the Tree of Life shifted a bit a aligned with various parts of my body in my mind’s eye. Later, I encountered descriptions of the correspondences of the Sephirot to the human body, and these descriptions outlined what I was seeing.

The Tree of Life was a map of the kinds of energies active or latent in our individual systems, and the paths among the Sephirot are the various ways we can align and attune our vehicles to the whole. Ultimately we would reach a resonance in the way we run our energy to attain an understanding of the Divine Splendor.

I put aside the reading because the information from my inner vision seemed more direct and readily accessible. I was astounded at the depth to which the sages who discovered this system of knowledge understood energy.

Even astrology and alchemy and magic fit in this system. Astrology, specifically, was always something weird for me. Being a scientist – an astrophysicist understanding that gravity is the only interaction between our planets and the sun – what do position of the planets have to do with our lives? At some point, I realized that planetary positions in the physical realm are mere pointers to energetic structures in the nonphysical realms. Thus, physical locations of planets are helpful. I could feel how movement of planetary energy on the nonphysical levels affected me, at least. I could also feel the “astrological charts” occurring for others and the Earth, as a whole.

By the way, planets are conscious and do not orbit the Sun on the other planes of existence like they do in the physical realm.

Why does any of this matter? My study this weekend affirmed for me that there is knowledge for us across the various traditions. There is help available to aid us in grasping our origins and relationship to life. The Kabbalah appears to be among the truer of truths out there – and very challenging to grasp.

Like all truths, it must be reflected by our being before it can be known. I was not foolish to seek the books in Aramaic and to avoid the watered-down New Age pamphlets on the bookshelves.

We are surrounded by the language of consciousness at all times, and resonance is imminent for establishing a willingness and ability to receive, communicate, and commune.

Back to Basics

As always, my weekend started with a theme. Weekends are my time to regroup and learn something new. This weekend began with me butchering lyrics to the song “Major Tom”:

Ground control to Major Tom

Your radio ain’t working well at all

Been trying to let your know

That you’re floating into a black hole…

Can you hear me major Tom? 2x

I always felt like Major Tom – floating in a tin can, far far away. But then, while grading papers, I decided to watch “The Magic of Solomon” on Amazon Prime. While I never got into ceremonial magic, I was curious to see real footage of ceremonies – what were these people actually trying to accomplish? That’s a whole other blog….

As I lay down for the night, I googled something about magic and stumbled on a blog by Sophie Reicher. I’d never heard of her before, but her blog was pretty interesting. I found myself nodding to most of what she wrote about students not understanding that they have to heal and transform themselves to transform. Most people don’t get that they need to be disciplined and solid in the basics before tackling advanced maneuvers. Otherwise, ignorance begets ignorance.

After reading Sophie’s blog, I bought her book and started reading that: “Spiritual Protection.” I had learned about grounding and centering before, but – while reading – it occurred to me that the “basics” seem very different after I had dipped into the more nuanced pools.

My body had reconfigured so much, but I had never gone back to revisit what grounding and centering means for me now. I have been feeling sick for so long that it never occurred to me to reconsider my connection to the Earth plane, to study how breathing (Pranayam) affects my energy flow, or to balance the distribution of my energy across the various planes of existence. Because the light anchors me in permanent happiness, I never “suffer” my condition. However, that doesn’t mean I necessarily need to be in a state of discomfort.

Much of what Sophie writes about does not apply to me specifically. For example, I cannot draw energy from the Earth because my current has reversed a decade ago – I can only receive the light as it breathes me, and otherwise I shine. Also, I don’t need to “ground” myself in various “worlds” by dropping cords there – she talked about planes of existence based on Nordic cosmology, but I got where she was going. It also makes no sense to “clean” my chakras – especially since my root chakra and the ones just above have merged into the heart several years ago – like the string of Christmas lights was pulled up and twirled into new knots.

So, what did I learn? A lot. Essentially, I need to intensify my study of what are my basics. So much had changed so quickly that I forgot to consciously revisit what it means for me to exist. I do need to ground, center, and balance my energy – even if the specifics are somewhat different than what people typically teach. I have to discover what that means for me now, at this point in my evolution.

There is a false assumption that enlightenment is like a “set it and forget it” switch – once you crack open, you are on automatic. Well, certainly you are on automatic, but relationship to everything else is still diligent, required work. That was my wake-up call to restore my own basic understanding of what it means for me to be alive and how I can do it in a more healthy way while existing across worlds simultaneously.

I have known that this is my life’s work. However, I wasn’t sure how to approach it. Now, without a teacher, it is a lot more challenging to figure stuff out and takes longer. I think people who knock having a respectable teacher just crave taking lifetimes to learn. I prefer to use my lifetime to its fullest. If a teacher came along for me, I would study with him or her in a heartbeat. Although, I do not see this happening.

Sometimes we are left on our own to go in an untraveled direction. I do not see what I have learned written down in books or discussed online. There are at least two people to whom I will pass on what I learned, and I know that their challenge would be to evolve that knowledge even further with only their creative inspiration as a guide.

These two people will also hit this wall – what will be “basics” to them as they morph beyond recognition?

Coming to Terms with Authenticity

Who we think we are is not always in alignment with how we present ourselves. The discord between our self-perception and the feedback we get can be jarring.

I don’t write to give advice. I just share my experience – that is really all any of us can do. For over 30 years of my life, I imagined myself as being different than what I really was.

I remember wanting to be someone kind and gentle who looked like a supermodel and spent every second of life “saving the world.” However, the feedback that I got from the world was that I was obsessive, blunt, and generally too intense to be around. I had the persona of someone who always wanted to be right and to have all the answers. I also had a self-righteous streak and couldn’t just let people be to do their thing – I wanted to “fix” them too.

I always joke with my students that we are all students at the “School of Hard Knocks” – with free tuition and universal enrollment. Life is constantly giving feedback about what any of us actually project despite our self-views.

After years of listening to life and letting go, it’s now easy to accept myself the way I am. That’s been a difficult journey, for sure. I am still pretty intense, but lost my obsessiveness somewhere. Rather, now I care about some things and couldn’t care less about others. Generally, I value people’s abilities to experience their lives the way they want to and don’t look to “fix” them or much of anything else.

While being sweet and nice sounds good in theory, it has never worked for me. As a high-school teacher, I deal with nearly 150 students daily – many of whom don’t want to learn anything. I also have kids at home, who occasionally throw attitude my way. To deal with people’s obstacles, I tend to throw flames in their direction. Despite the intensity, my classroom is always full of kids – even during my “off” periods. Students tell me that they are terrified of me and also feel that I am kind and “hilarious.” That’s feedback. Perhaps not how I imagined myself being, but that’s what I am.

It was hard for me to go through the time of incongruency between what I wanted to become and what I actually was. I no longer wrestle with myself. I do have a gauge for when I have less patience with people and their drama, and I isolate myself until my patience returns. It’s become obvious that I need a lot of time to myself and I take those signals seriously.

As a child, a psychic told me that I would have two blonde boys. This came to pass. That psychic also told me I would not have lasting marriages. I know it sounds odd that I talked to a psychic as a kid, but that’s not so abnormal for Russians.

My kids are a very important part of my life – I naturally want to make them strong and independent, but I am also sensitive to their emotionsl needs and help them deal with stuff as it comes up.

As for having a partner, I don’t even think about it now. In fact, my prior marriages feel like they happened to someone else and not to me. “I” was never married. Maybe I somehow traversed time lines into a different reality….

It may be interesting for some that we live in multiple realities simultaneously, and having somewhat different experiences in parallel. It’s not uncommon for our attention to refocus across these realities into another “version” of ourselves. Unfortunately, this idea is not well captured in movies – we don’t need physical portals to travel across timelines and only our “attention” shifts to a different possibility. Occasionally, our dreams can be bleedthroughs from other realities – especially recurring dreams.

I jumped timelines about a year ago into this one. It wasn’t a conscious jump. It was just life taking me here. This is where I will unify all my other existences and complete my karma. The wisdom of the jump is obvious.

Would it make sense to willfully jump across timelines? My sense is probably not. However, we can expand our awareness to heal ourselves in all our existences. It may be beneficial to meditate on the root of ourselves that sprouted into different realities – many very foreign to our current imaginations. There is something to be said for achieving congruency of who we are and merging all of ourselves into a unified consciousness.

Living simultaneously in different “realities” is another layer of complexity to rebirth and having had past lives. Knowing or living this is not necessary for our individual and collective evolution, and most will gloss over what I describe here as either a “cool idea” or just imagination.

It may sound like insanity to live with conscious awareness of past and parallel existences. One existence is challenging enough. However, enlightenment does pretty incredible things to broaden our awareness of reality and makes our brains capable of processing all this information without overwhelm. Enlightenment is more than just a figment of the mind and is quite physiological, changing and adapting our nervous systems.

I’ve written before about flash awareness that can take snapshots of fairly complex structures and instantly comprehend these. For me, this ability to process existence continues to open. Changes are still occurring and the transitions are so smooth, I barely notice. Growth is exponential after enlightenment.

In the meantime, here I am – describing an old habit of wanting to be different from what I actually was. It seems so odd now to even have that thought, let alone waking up – morning after morning – and trying to be something other than what I was. I don’t remember how that felt anymore, but I do recall how uncomfortable that was – what a way to live.

Artists talk about the vanishing point when they draw perspective drawings. Similarly, I see a possibility of convergence of all my lives – my expressions. Paradoxically, I will “vanish” when this occurs, remembered by some and completely forgotten by others.

Restorative Awake

Sleep is restorative, balancing our physiological processes and brain function. Until this day, I saw no way to restore my being to balance because even deep sleep does not serve the same purpose for me anymore. Because I had no answers for how to regain my health so that I could be fully here, I just resigned to the potential for the rest of my life to be one of great discomfort.

But, when I was talking to a friend today about the potential imbalances resulting from incorrect giving and receiving, she responded that Buddha spent half of his time in meditation to be able to participate in this world. Later in the evening, I realized that this is what I have been missing – the restorative “awake.”

I crave complete immersion in my state of wakefulness. However, most of my time – for years – has been spent taking care of situations that I have largely outgrown. Somehow, I had moved on but expected that how I function would remain the same. Maybe that’s typical.

My life has been set up such that 2019 is the year when I release my karmic obligations. My divorce will be complete. My legal case to get my son from a prior marriage his college tuition from his well-off father will also be put to rest. I will complete my second Masters degree and will not be pulling all-nighters to do homework. A few other loose ends will be tied up. I can feel the karma unwinding and releasing me to truly live. This is exciting!

If it were not for my friend talking about Buddha meditating, I don’t know how much longer it would have taken me to make the connection that I can be alive here and I need ample time in my nonphysical bodies.

I am no longer built to continuously attend to this world, stealing occasional hours to engage in what is now more natural for me. This is why I have been physically breaking down. I am so grateful for this understanding.

Illnesses are indicators of an imbalance and bring us to attention to opportunities we ignore. There is no manual for how to live an easy, carefree life – we all have different requirements for our existence. What I have been missing is time to be in my true form, which is barely physical. It is not deep sleep, but an awake state of complete immersion in being.

In the meantime, I will still be caring for my children and the students I teach. To be able to give what I can and wholeheartedly want to give here, I need to have the time to spend in a state of restful wakefulness – where every cell of my body is cradled by the sparks of creation and I am unhindered by physical form. It is so simple!

I am glad that my previous situations will stop running my life and, instead, I will be able to rightfully claim my existence in freedom while still in the body.

Years ago, a teacher told me that I should not be hiding in a monastery, and challenged me to be in the world. I also knew, in my heart of hearts, that I had to be among people and sharing myself with them. I just didn’t know how that would work, given that I daily felt like I was swimming in mercury. Yet, it was obvious that my customary way of engaging with reality was not going to work.

When our eyes close, sometimes something altogether new is being made ready to be seen…

Atlas Shrugged and Idiocracy

I watched Atlas Shrugged this weekend – a movie based on Ayn Rand’s book. I also watched the movie Idiocracy. As per usual and without conscious planning, there was a theme for me related to these movies – how much does any one being need to give society, or to the “greater good”?

Atlas Shrugged appeared to have a key message: Altruism and charity are OK, as long as these are neither guilted out of nor forced upon an individual. Here, the individual’s rights are primary and no person need feel obligated to society. Those who create or discover, including inventors, artists, philosophers, and scientists, need not feel pressured to offer up their creativity to the “greater good” unless they are fairly compensated in some way. What do you think about that?

Atlas represents the practical creators who prop up the world. If the world forces or manipulates Atlas to continue to support it, Atlas can simply shrug in response. Otherwise, the needy just get needier and the competent would just have to pick up more slack for everyone else. People do get lazy and complacent when they feel that someone else will take care of things. As a high-school teacher, I see this fact clearly with my students.

Idiocracy was about what would happen to the world if all intelligent, creative people were bred out of existence. It’s actually a known fact that cultures placing a high value on education also reproduce less! According to the movie, the world would literally degrade to garbage in this case. In the end, “average Joe” does not save humanity, but does give it a solid kick in the right direction – the “average Joe” is not so helpless after all!

I’ve often pondered how much I can give to others. My tendency was to give everything I had and expect nothing in return. If I had something that others wanted or needed, I would give it away with no consideration for myself.

Eventually, I realized that I would die if I kept that up – I was constantly tired, became ill, and generally started to fade from life. It was a wakeup call for me to realize that if I did die, the very people to whom I gave would not care much or at all. That didn’t feel right – was I really expendable?

In everyday-life terms, I always had a job and was able to solely support my family on my income for nearly a decade. Many assumed that I was built to do, accomplish, and ensure everyone was taken care of. In addition, I had this deepseated wish to help others in need and provided emotional strength and support to anyone who crossed my path.

It was my difficult lesson to begin to accept that, just because I could do something didn’t mean that I always need to do it. It even began to feel wrong to want to take away people’s suffering because, on a deeper level, I was taking away something they needed to grow.

I willingly took responsibility for anything and everything I could, incorrectly thinking that this was the right way to live my life. But, I was wrong. I chose too quickly to sacrifice myself until it became impossible for me to continue. I had to learn when to help and when to step aside and let others take responsibility.

The wisdom required to discern when it is correct to help is much more profound, as it turns out, than Ayn Rand’s thesis. After all, almost all of us have unresolved karma and obligations from this and other lives. At times, we are rightfully in the position to give more than we receive. However, when balance is achieved, it is utterly wrong to continue giving.

Similarly, wisdom is necessary to discern when to receive from someone. When someone may appear to be giving, they can actually be giving mostly resentment and guilt – which does not serve anyone. In fact, such giving is actually a form of further taking.

The intention behind giving is more important than the superficial act. I’ve had people in my life go through the motions of giving, but in reality just unloading their resentment onto me for whatever reasons their perception concocted. I had to learn when it was necessary to refuse such “gifts.”

There can be an entire teaching around the art and science of giving and receiving! This is the dynamic at the core of human relationships.

Unfortunately, it took me becoming completely drained and exhausted before I learned my lesson. Interestingly, I also became more attuned to situations where it was undoubtedly still OK to give to others and I would not be drained.

In my case, I often had to reach a point of great discomfort before I realized I needed to make a change. I guess I am a bit dense. Now, the pendulum has swung the other way and I enjoy my much-needed solitude. It is my time to recouperate and to undo some of the damage from overserving. My body is very tired and barely functions – I did that to myself and I take full responsibility for allowing this to happen. Fortunately, I may have caught this in time and now just wait for old karmic connections to be severed.

The Mahabharata talks about one’s duty – the kind we develop over lifetimes and for which we must take responsibility. If we do this, life is clean, free from imbalance, self-loving, and appropriately giving to others. It took waking up to the value of my own life to recognize the reality of the need for balance.

In practice, it is not necessarily good to serve everyone we meet. Also, the “greater good” is much more subtle than people having all their needs met. The bigger picture is much more nuanced, where telling someone off may very well be serving the greater good.

I had to learn this using my own life and body as sounding boards. It never ceases to amaze me how our bodies are such sophisticated devices for intuiting the correct response or actions. The more we listen to our intuition, the easier it becomes to hear.

I am OK shrugging now when there are cries for help. My life has as much value as I see in the lives of others, which is significant. It’s important to know, without any illusions, when we don’t owe someone a single thing.

The Great War

I was reflecting on human history, and a dominant pattern stood out for me as defining the human struggle over millenea. This is the dynamic where a certain group of people feels superior to others and aims to establish its supremacy.

Racial and ethnic tensions and battles continue to tear at life even now in numerous regions on Earth. Why does this pattern of establishing dominance arise? Is such a dynamic inevitable as our collective growing pain, or is there a different – untapped – approach toward embracing all people as one human race?

When a group of people believe that they are superior, these individuals adopt an unshakable confidence in their position. Such a group walks, talks, and behaves as if the entire planet Earth is at their disposal – literally. Furthermore, the ones taking a dominant position develop derision for those who do not belong to their proclaimed order. Derision and the resulting aggression ultimately breed rebellion of the castigated groups, and war ensues.

Not all wars stem from establishing dominance based on claims of superiority, but it is these types of wars that tear up the fabric of our existence like no other wars. While we may battle over limited resources, it is genocide that decisively wounds and degrades our entire way of life – no matter which side we are on.

Just as we have individual egos, there are group egos, and the energy of ego-bound groups is reflected across multiple planes of existence. Truly, the resulting conflict is one of Heaven and Earth, as portrayed by our oversimplified fairy tales about the fight between Good and Evil.

I see the ethnic and racial wars as archetypal wars of evolution out of the ego-trapped state, but played out on a larger-than-individual scale. Similar to the way individuals experience an internal battle of feeling separate versus embracing connection to the Divine, this same conflict unfolds for a cluster of egos.

There is also the planet-scale Ego, but this process (although quite vivid on the higher planes) remains mostly invisible to humanity on the Earth plane. Thus, there is nothing more to be said about it at this time.

The key to healing group-ego conflict lies in the way we would approach our individual enlightenment. After a soul realizes that the Divine is living it, that soul feels its connection to group souls. Do we need to wait for each soul to attain enlightenment before ego-groups and the entire human race feel Divinity as its root?

The answer is “no” – we do not need to wait for each individual transformation. While each individual is cultivating awareness and identification with its unique root, the ego-groups are also evolving their consciouness, and – similarly – so is the entire human race. This work is ongoing and relentless, and each individual being continuously feels the totality of these influences at play – even if unconsciously.

Self-awareness took time – cycles of iterative development, group awareness takes time, and planetary self-awareness takes time. Where is this all going? What are we all evolving toward at these different scales and planes of existence?

The vision for our evolution has been built into our collective unconscious since the beginning of our time as human souls. Yes, soul-groups have differences from one another. However – intuitively, we all know that all individuals are to wake up to their potential, and each has equal inherent value – no one is superior. If an individual does not know this, they will – eventually.

Faith is the trust we place in the ultimate unity of unique and individually awakened parts. While this end state does not yet exist and is unknown (because it is being created by each of our lives and collectives – as we live), we already know that such a state is free of fear on all levels. Thus, whatever fear is on the physical plane, its counterparts on the the higher planes must also be seen through, understood, and surrendered. Faith is what happens when we let go to what is known unconsciously before it has become conscious.

While our current tendency is to predominantly focus on ourselves, we do have times when we feel our ego-groups and intuit the direction of evolution of these groups. We even experience times when we consciously move across boundaries of species and consider animals and plants. This is all evidence that more than our individual process is occurring, and collective and universal processes are ongoing.

Individuals can awaken groups, and group-consciousness can awaken individuals. The awesome nature of our existence is all-inclusive, whether we recognize this yet or not.

It may or may not be obvious that enlightenment is both for our awakening and also the awakening of groups at various scales. We all benefit from such a multipronnged approach. No one is left behind.

Each ethnic war awakens all of us a little more to Human Rights and its higher-plane counterparts. The idea that superior races are possible is dying – we are over the hump.

By working on our individual awakening we also learn to access consciousness at different scales. Each of us participates on many levels simultaneously, and this participation accelerates the whole – just as the whole accelerates each of us.

In the meantime, we must continue to unite in the Earthly processes of establishing human rights for all. This is a messy process and often seems difficult and hopeless. We must trust that, beyond our self-absorbed tendencies, greater forces are at play. By simply attending to such ideas, we are helping to ignite the whole into a conflagration of both individual and collective consciousness.

We must continue to engage our attention with what we know is true. We must learn to actively listen to the universe, for It is never silent and speaks in languages fit to each of our multidimensional bodies.

Within compex systems, there is always emergence – an unpredictable state of organization from a seemingly chaotic state. This emergence happens frequently in both natural and synthetic complex systems, as frequently discussed in scientific literature. This is happening to all of us, and we are happening to It. No one will be left behind and honed attention is what is mostly needed.

Psalm 23 – Reflection

Psalm 23, to me, is an example of inspired spiritual writing that speaks from beyond the physical earth plane of existence and reminds us of our root source.

On the surface, the Psalm is about a human being praying to a separate God somewhere in the distance. However, I hear it as the essential insight that we are fundamental expressions of the Divine and, thus, supercede any earthly occurrence – such as “enemies,” or forces opposing our physical survival.

We lack nothing when viewing our lives from the perspective of the whole.

From King James version…

1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

I have completely surrendered my life to the Divine. Now, I lack nothing and feel complete.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

It is the Divine living me, and not the other way around. The Divine will guides my every thought, word, and action. I have surrendered to this completely and feel uninterrupted peace (peace is itself a higher-plane template). I rest beyond the turbulent waters of the lower planes.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

By surrendering to the Divine completely, I am restored to correctly seeing my physical life as Divine expression in all its forms.

The name of the Divine is unspoken because we cannot speak it – it does not exist here and has only approximations on our plane. This name, or “word,” is the essence of creation.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Physical life inevitably ends in death. I do not fear death because I know death does not really separate me from my source. Evil is only perceived separation from the perspective of my physical existence, but I have since shifted my perspective.

True comfort is the Divine root I feel supporting my very being, moved by the Divine as It lives.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Amidst all the ups and downs of life, I am an expression of love and enjoy this feeling. I celebrate life, no matter how dire my situation may appear here.

The initial reminder, enlightenment to the reality that we are Divine at the root, comes in as a palpable feeling of something pouring in through the crown of the head and taking hold of the brainstem.

Ultimately, we transform into a mode of continuously shining and giving (“my cup runneth over”), while receiving everything that we are from our source. I am consciously aware of the true exchange on the higher planes of existence.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Now that I know my true nature and feel the Divine living me, I cannot unfeel This. I can never forget again.

I will live my physical life from this vantage point with full knowledge of my true home.

Inspired writing is ultimately felt and not analyzed by the mind. Who is it, truly, that feels inspiration?

Why Spiritual Writing Is Both Futile and Priceless

Spiritual language does not use words that can be understood in terms of daily living, but speaks the myriad blueprints that construct and influence our evolution.

Human beings primarily adjust their attitudes and behaviors based on what they can get from life, no matter how outwardly altruistic their actions appear. Spiritual writing does not speak of or prescribe how to control such a life. Instead, spiritual writing speaks of the spiritual world that aims to give, rather than to take. Such a giving and radiant world is only attained after transformation, and remains invisible to the rest until then.

The language of spiritual writing does not aim to convey ideas that will help everyone take for themselves the most comfortable and pleasant life, which is what people want – including pleasant beliefs about themselves. Thus, in a way, spiritual writing may be seen as largely useless to the majority and is guaranteed to be misinterpreted through the lenses of the ego. You can certainly want what you want, but you’ll get what you’ll get. Can wisdom be discerned in what appears incomprehensible or even off-base to an untrained observer?

A true spiritual text will not teach people how to take a seemingly negative situation and turn it to their individual advantage. Spiritual forces, to be understood, must be seen clearly from the level at which they operate – and they do not make sense to ego-trapped perspectives. So, why bother writing about spiritual worlds at all, which are completely foreign to daily affairs?

Simply put, spiritual writing from the transformed level serves as a bridge that invites humanity to yearn for nothing short of transforming out of the self-absorbed, egoic state. Invitation is a term that is used loosely here because it is not necessarily the vision of a cozy and lit cottage on a snowy mountain! The essence of the spiritual will is transmuted to words that singe the mind, which only aims to negotiate for wealth, sex, appetite, and the full cornucopia of the physical realm. Spirituality, in its purest form, inspires the yearning of the heart to such despair that one is satisfied with nothing less than transformation and alignment with the ever-radiant and giving Divine, also known as the Light (which is not the same as what comes out of a light bulb). Then, one receives from the Divine and simultaneously gives back to the whole.

We need to become these forces that do not revolve around individual attainment but provide the corrected, impersonal view of daily and universal “events.” Note that the impersonal is not cold or heartless, as it could be interpreted in everyday terms, but is passion and creation itself. Whether we know this or not, it is this impersonal and whole-oriented creative passion that is wanting in egocentric life.

Spiritual writing may irritate, cajole, and taunt limited perspectives to challenge what people hold most dear, which is likely to also be false. When spiritual texts are read from the perspective of the limited mind, they seem frustratingly incomprehensible.

Spiritual beings who have moved beyond the operations of the ego will also appear irritating and, likely, crazy, to a consciousness that believes it is mainly on the Earth to experience a smooth and comfortable life. The sleeping hearts are, as yet, unaware that all experience that does not prioritize complete letting go and alignment with the force that lives us will be ultimately found empty. The lower realms based on getting something from life are designed to show humanity the futility of seeking to control life because that is impossible. Why? So that we would want to evolve out of that stay and not remain trapped.

Every single being will eventually come to the understanding of the reality that nothing is separate from the great force that lives all of us. Until that point, handfuls at a time will rise out of the feeling that they are islands and into the continent of true existence.

A spiritual being will never pray for situations to take a certain turn to produce a desired outcome. A spiritual being will not negotiate with blind dysfunction and the lust for pleasure spripped of the Divine spark. Rather, the spiritual being will growl and strike when, from the human perspective, it would seem that subtlety would manipulate more effectively the desirable earth-bound results. Certainly, a being that behaves contrary to quiet manipulation that achieves specific ends may seem crazy to most.

It makes no difference that there is an apparent war of perspectives of the spiritual and the ego-bound. All will eventually arrive at the same place – a potentially long long time, in earthbound terms. Yet, each awakened being shares that awakening with the entirety of humanity because we are all intricately interwoven into one fabric of being. With each awakened individual, all are brought closer to a truth that will continue to evade everyday, descriptive language.

Catalytic spiritual writing is never about the happenings on the physical planes, but about the template-like counterparts in the higher planes. The writing is not intended to be understood and compounded as knowledge, but to raise humanity out of the illusion that the ego can see and know.

Spirituality makes no sense to the ego. However, it is only until an individual exhausts his or her pleading with life and lets go that evolution can progress. Secret texts are only secret because people have not yet sufficiently changed to understand them.

One truth that will fly in the face of most belief systems is that we have truly limited free will. We believe that we can change or create our circumstances, when – in reality – we can only control where we place our attention. Hardships will be borne as “punishment” until one rises above this plane of existence to see the larger picture of the mass return to the Divine embrace.

One thing we can control is the rate at which we awaken via our yearning and accepting the help of those who have awakened – one lifetime or more? I laugh at those who feel they have attained spiritual awareness on their own because such statements imply that individuals can evolve in isolation of the myriad forces – internal and external – pressing upon us. Those who make such claims (except for the few, rare, personified droplets directly of the Divine who emerge here at times) have not really transformed, but learned to mimic transformation. They are only fooling themselves. My laugh will sound crazy to most in such situations.

I have let go into the Divine and it lives me, not the other way around. I now answer to no individual. I am destined to walk a fine line of endearing and/or pissing off those in contact with me because I appear like a person but have ceased to be that for nearly a decade now. I couldn’t give a good goddam about accumulating, wielding power, or explaining to an ego-trapped soul why I move through life the way I do – and people do demand explanations and even accountability.

Most people I meet will not speak the same language as me or understand me. Why would I care? A being is a spiritual text and more, eventually.

Surprisingly, I’ve noticed that I endear more often than piss off these days. This wasn’t always the trend and I’ve since learned to tame and channel the fire. On some level, authenticity is even more powerful a pull than my lack of apparent respect for people’s need for “perfect” lives, which meet all their wants.

A life that is unfulfilled is empty of that which it truly wants. It is when you cease to live for yourself that you begin to live for all, whether most “get it” or not.

A Life of Transformation and Enlightenment